obstacles

obstacles- their everywhere. No matter where you look, no matter how hard you try to avoid them, they find you. Most people have no idea how to handle these obstacles. So what do they do instead? They cover them up and pretend that they don't exist. But they do exist. They exist everyday. Life is hard, that's no secret. But just because things don't seem perfect doesn't mean that they aren't perfect for you. Everyone's "perfect" is different than the others. Girls need to stop depending on guys to make them happy, cause in reality those girls aren't happy... they pretend and the act like their obstacles and heartaches don't exist. And in on this depending on guys and always with a different one to make themselves feel better, what their really doing is not only hurting themselves but the ones around them as well. I have lost too many friends due to this problem. Why would a girl allow a male- whom may or may not even be around for the rest of your life, consume your life and tear apart your precious friendships? Cause i can tell you one thing- those "boys" are most likely not going to stick around. Their going to find someone else thats younger, smarter, hotter, prettier, funnier, etc than you and leave you crying without any friends because you cared more about this "boy" than the people who actually cared about you. So instead of feeling sorry for yourself and having no self worth or self esteem, put your big girl panties on and live your life. Follow the path that God has paved for you any everything else will fall into place. Stop trying to rush fate. It will happen in it's own time. For now, just sit back and enjoy this beautiful thing they call LIFE :)

stuck

Sometimes in life you feel like you're going nowhere. Like your life is stuck in pause and you are ready for someone to push play. That's me. I'm in pause mode and i guess i'm okay with that. I think it's helping to give me the chance to help others and to realize that i shouldn't just think of myself, that there are others out there that have it worse than me and that i should be thankful for everyday that i have, being healthy, vibrant, full of life, a loving family, wonderful friends, and a place to call home. I've grown a lot closer to the man above these past few years. He's been there for me when i thought no one was. He's shown me a different side to things that i though were one-sided. Sometimes when i feel as though i will get nowhere in school and will NEVER graduate and be independent i keep hearing him in the back of my mind saying it's going to be okay, just slow down and enjoy every second of it, even if it is stressful and hard. I think of other people who are fighting for their lives, or their families, and what their going through. And it makes me think that if someone has the power to live and get better and stronger then i should be able to pass a class that i have deemed impossible the second i walked through the door. I guess i should believe in myself more just as my mom does. Now her right there she's something else. I mean God could of only made her for me. Her strength, i mean c'mon who can work 3 jobs, have a full time job, be a full time mom, and still make time to cook dinner, and support me the way noone else could....my mom she's not human sometimes i think :). I think God spent some extra time when making her. Piecing her together just right so that under the hardest decision, the roughest times, she wouldn't fall apart. She has will and strength and love like no other. So even though i feel like my life is "stuck" and in pause right now, i know someday it won't be and that when i do finally reach where i'm going i will have my angel- my mom- there supporting me and loving me, and all those people that were hurting, well they will be better- either in heaven with the man above, or with their families, either way those people and my mom are the ones who give me my strength and drive to get to where i know i'm meant to be.